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Friday, June 19, 2009

Umm...23 is young right?

Now, I never thought that there will be a day where I'll worry about getting/being old.

Really now, where did all that time go? I still remember being 16........Crap. Actually my memories of being 16 has become more vague. >__< I guess you just can't fight time.

I guess all girls have had this conversation before. At a slumber party, during recess, during class, on the phone, we've all talked about how old we want to be when we get married, how many kids we want, what kind of husband we want. Yes, we talked about it like we knew what it was all about. I remember I wanted to be married at 26, wanted 2 kids and my husband was going to be Bob Saget. Yes, when I was a boob-less, armpit hair-less 8 year old, I had a HUGEEEEE crush on Bob Saget (If you don't know who Bob Saget is, think Full House or America's Funniest Home Videos). Yes, I was into older men and didn't even realise it.

Now that I'm 23, I cannot imagine myself being married in 3 years. I blame this on my parents constantly treating me like I'm 5. I don't even feel like a full fledge adult, how on earth do I even think of being someone's wife. And the idea of committing to someone for the rest of your life till death do us part, that's just too much.

However, the idea of kids is nice. I've been finding myself more drawn to babies lately. Not just cute babies, but the ugly ones too (Now before you judge me, remember that time where you thought that baby looked like a monkey or a creature? Yeah. Don't judge me). There was this baby that made a lasting impression. On my way back home from Redang, a couple with a kid was sitting right in front of me in the bus. Because she was constantly moving right in front of me, I had no choice but to observe her for a full 7 hours. It was........sweet. The way she smiled at her mother. The mischevious look she had when she was being playful. That was all very cute but she did one thing that amazed me so much that I still remember that beautiful picture till this day. The way she snuggled next to her mother's chest, laying her head on her mother's shoulder with a look that could not be described with anything else besides love. It was a pure untainted love. It looked like she didn't want to be anywhere else. It looked like she never felt as safe. The softness in her eyes indicating no fear of the dangers in the world. The tiny content smile because she was happy. Dammit, I want someone to love me like that too! This beats the love in The Notebook anytime! But childbirth. Ugh. I don't think I'm ready to squeeze a tiny human out of my hoo-hoo anytime soon. I wonder how some women do it. I know of women my age who are like baby making factories. Respect.

And as for Bob Saget, I have repented and know now that it is wrong to be in love with someone old enough to be your father. But hey, if it's your thing, I'm not judging and wish you all the happiness in the world. I just think it's kind of sick but, no, I'm not judging. :D

Anyway I've digressed quite a bit because my point is despite what I think, I am actually old enough to think about these things. I'm no longer too young and no one is going to tell me to wait till I'm older and to focus on my studies because I'm even done with that! Hah!

I know of some women whose life's ambition is to be married and have kids. While I do tend to take it easy and have no plans of becoming some corporate hotshot, I don't really believe in marriage. However, that doesn't mean I don't believe in love, because I do. I believe that love can exist without marriage but some marriages do exist without love. If I should ever be expected to visit the idea of marriage, I have to be convinced that I'm going to get "The Notebook" love. One that is forever and can't be ruined by anything, not even Alzheimer's. One where I'll still be beautiful in his eyes even when I have 10 pounds of lard hanging out like it's a good day.

It can't only happen in movies. If people can speak of such tales, then it must exist. And I am not settling for less.

Yeap, won't be getting married any time soon. Sigh~

melia signed out with love @ 2:51 AM (0) earthling(s) farted

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..What About Amelia?..

Because this blog needs an introduction
Here goes!

I'm 40% mature, 30% child-like
10% fashionista, 8% dork
6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
2% blur, 1% hero x)

I also want to marry John Mayer
And oh, I want a pet unicorn too x)

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