....It's The Lil' Things That Make Life Sweet....

Friday, August 25, 2006

I am HEALED!

From what you may ask.

EVERYTHING, I say. x)

Ever since Saturday I was down with fever, head splitting headaches, nausea, body ache, and compulsive burpings. Those of you who hang out with me often enough would naturally know that I have somehow weirdly developed this weird inexplicable burping habit. It's not that I purposely do it. I can't self-induce burp like some others I know. I've always wanted to but never could. But now it's happening to me everyday, every hour, every min and on a very bad day, every second. Unbelievable? Believe it. Ask those who know. I'mma burping machine! Jeng jeng jeng!

I'm not happy of course. I mean for awhile I thought it was quite 'chun' lah. But it does get irritating and rather embarassing when you do it in public. The worse thing is I have no control over it. It shoots out with a 'BAA-UGH' before I can even keep it in. x( And to think I once ask Zharif to teach me to self-induce a burp. He told me to suck in air and just release it like you're pushing your diaphragm out. So I did. Again and again and again. And not one single audible burp.

Come to think of it, the burps starting pouring in right after that. x( I jinxed myself.

Anyway back to the being sick part. Yea I was really sick. I was in bed all week. Skipped all my classes. On the first day I had to call Kenny over to teman me cos mom and dad went out. He was so sweet, he bought me fish porridge. XD And he even fed me in bed. And tuck me to sleep and even sang me a slightly off version of 'twinkle twinkle little star'. Ahahahaha. Damn bahagia I tell you. XD Thanks Bee. Wuv yew. *loveydoveymushywushy*

Yeap. That night itself I developed a fever. It went on and off for 3 days. I was then manja-ed by both my parents. Damn bahagia lah. It's been so long. I know la I'm 20 years old and still damn manja but I'm still staying with my parents what. Sick ma. But it's nice to be pampered, no matter how old you are. XD But it didn't mean I had a grand time la. The fever made me blur and my head felt like someone was trying to saw it apart to have a peep at my brains, the burping made me feel like puking my innards out, and I eventually did. I totally hate the taste of bile. It rhymes with vile and vile is bile. Yes I make no sense but I do. Woohoo. I'm healed.

Oyeah not only that, and I know as awful and disgusting this may sound but I shat till my ass bled. See the severity of my condition? Damn poor thing right?

My mom was pretty concern about my non-stop burping and my abnormal shitting conditions so she took me to a doc. The doc diagnosed me with anxiety and stress. I was pretty stunned at first. She told me, " Your heart is beating very fast, very abnormal, it's beating at 93 beats per min." Then she went on and asked me about my uni life, assignments, lifestyle and all. She looked so concerned about me that I started feeling really bad for myself. She must be thinking, "This poor girl is going crazy..tsk tsk..so young and already such a hard life." Okay I made that up, but really, she was stroking my hair and all.

Anyhoo, she gave me ALOT of meds that included this fibre drink to make passing motion a bliss. Okay la she didn't say that but it's supposed to make it easier. But that drink, I tell you, it looks like crap, tastes like crap, so I guess it's no wonder it'll make me crap. I can't even open my eyes drinking it. Kenny said, "You look like you're drinking what's coming out."

EWWwww...... XP

And then there are the Happy Pills. I love my Happy Pills. They make me happy and sleepy. Actually they're some sort of anti-depressant cum relaxant drug thingy lah. But I was whining to him about how taking them made me sound like some nut and that knowing that I have to take them makes me depressed when I'm not anymore. So he told me not to think of them as anti-depressant pills but Happy Pills. Yeah. I know lah, my mind abit screwed cos they technically mean the same, but Happy Pills sound less depressing. x)

But hey, I'm all better now. I got an extention for my Accounting assignment and I'll start on it tomorrow. It feels great to be healthy. Really. XD No more lying in bed for me. It's actually giving me back problems. x(

Happy Pills rocks yo!

melia signed out with love @ 12:53 AM (0) earthling(s) farted

Thursday, August 17, 2006

When darkness clouds,
the unassuming mind,
leading it to a path where ends don't meet.

A light shines through,
Basking the lost one with it's golden sheen,
Slowly evaporates the haze of uncertainty.

Pictures emerge,
Sounds resonate,
A hand, a shoulder, a smile,
The lost one lost no more.

To the two people who made it better. Thank you.

One for cradling me when tears fell. For comforting me, proving to me that you meant what you said a long time ago. That you'll always be there for me. I never felt this pampered in a very long time.

One for calling all the way from the land down under. For always caring no matter where you are. For always making the effort to show that you remember. For reminding me always that I have a great friend in you. I miss you so much. Everything about you and the times we shared.

*smiles*

melia signed out with love @ 12:34 AM (0) earthling(s) farted

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

I need a break. I'm going to explode.

Dear God, please help me get thru this torturous episode.

All I see is a dead end. No one to call out to. It seems like everyone's dealing with their own drama. Would be so unfair of me to unleash mine upon them.

I want to live on an island. Yes the living-on-an-island phase is kicking in once again.

I need someone to catch me. A wizard. A comedian. A knight.

Make my eyes light up once again. Not just red.

melia signed out with love @ 12:21 AM (2) earthling(s) farted

Monday, August 14, 2006

Is it me or is Sem 2 really stressful? All I know is I'm worn out. Maybe it's the way my classes are allocated. I feel like I don't have much time to do anything. They're all smacked right in the middle of the day. Starts at 12pm and ends around 3pm to 4pm. Everytime I come home I feel really tired. I just wanna sit on the couch forever. Even my weekends are stressful. I need to allocate time to do my assignments, need to allocate time to spend with my family, friends and boyfriend. I feel like I don't have time for all of them.

I went out with the girls last week on 2 occasions and it wasn't enough. There's just too much and so much to talk about. And it's like we have to rush for time. I really miss spending time with them. Having the whole day to ourselves and yapping about nothingness.

I have tonnes of books to read but I haven't got the time to read. I don't want to read them at the wee hours of the morning cos I want to sleep. No more sleeping late for me. It's about time I set my biological clock right.

My cousins are complaining that I'm being damn 'action' cos I haven't been to my granpa's place in ages.

And the boyfriend. I know I see him almost everyday in Uni. I know we go to almost all the same classes but it's not the same. In Uni it's strictly business and it can't exactly qualify as quality time. It's been so long since I actually went out on a proper date with him. Ironic isn't it. X/

Hah. 24 hours just ain't enough.

melia signed out with love @ 9:48 PM (0) earthling(s) farted

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

So I just had dinner and now I'm back at where I was before. In front of the computer screen again. At the rate I'm going, I might just go blind. My poor eyesight is poor enough that without visual aid (glasses/contact lenses) I can be rendered semi-blind. I wonder if the 3 blind mice would mind being a quartet instead? I'm pretty sure they won't mind. At least the 3rd mice would have someone to 'teman' her on 2 seater roller coaster rides. Don't need to worry bout sitting with strangers then. Yes the 3 blind mice are girls. In my world that is.

Now I think you can already guess/assume/conclude from that very pathetic lame and crappy statement up there that I,

a) don't have a life
b) am so bored out of my wits that I have nothing intelligent to say
c) should really get a life

If you guessed all 3 correct, congratulations and go get yourself a lollipop.

*stretch-yawn-stretch*

It's a lazy hazy crazy day of summer *sings*

I need something to do lah. Well I can always start revising my studies but the books just feel so heavy y'know. Sigh, the way I've been slacking is just so me. So predictable. Yap yap yap and no action. That's me. Great.

I want to get out of the monotonous life I have set for myself. Where's the drive? Where's the passion?

Sometimes I hate the fact that I live so far away from uni. I really would love to just go to the library alone and study in a corner. Actually it's not impossible and the only reason I'm not doing it is because of the horrendous traffic jams and increasing crime rates. Its just so horrible to feel so insecure in your own country. If you can't be safe here, your homeland, where else can you be safe? It's so ridiculous to have to seek security in a land that's not even home. And the irony is that you actually get it. It is just so wrong.

I know in my heart I want to get out of here. I know I don't want to be in Monash anymore. At least not in Malaysia. I really don't get what's wrong with the people in Monash. I mean I am grateful for the few friends I've made and I'm so glad that they're such a nice group of people but I'm still bothered by the word few. Out of 400 business students, I've only made a few friends. It is kind of sad. Monash feels so cold. Everyone minds their own business. It's like nobody bothers to get to know anyone anymore. In A-Level, I remember looking forward to classes because of the people, now I just go to uni for attendance.

I don't like this.

Where are the friendly people?

Sometimes I sit in the foyer, watching people. So many people walking in and out. Strangers they are to me and I to them. Yet I can't help but think that these strangers can be potential friends.

Just great. 20 years of age and yearning for more friends.

So damn wrong man.

It sucks to be studying in a cold cold place. X(

melia signed out with love @ 8:55 PM (2) earthling(s) farted

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

I kena SAMAN-ED today!

@#%^&*#$@#%@!#?!?!

And it I didn't even do ANYTHING wrong. Freaking hell!! My life sucks as of today.

I'm so raging mad, I want to strangle someone right now!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Phew!

I tell you why I'm innocent and I deserve none of this. NONE OF THIS. This is pure injustice man.

Early July, this year, I applied for the season pass for uni cos I didn't want to fight for parking every morning once I start uni. Chenn was with me because I was suppose to go college hopping with her. We stopped by Sunway and headed to the counter to apply for my season pass. The man who processed my application told me that I should apply on the 15th (cos uni starts on the 17th and it'll be more convenient that way) and that he'll hand me the pass but I won't be able to use it until the 15th cos that's when my application will be 'activated'. Now I paid RM 40 for that monthly pass. MONTHLY PASS. This means that the next time I need to renew my pass would be on the 15th August no? One month right? But no, yesterday when I tried entering the condo to park my car the bar wouldn't lift. So fine I parked in uni, as I thought it was some system glitch cos it was the beginning of the month. I went to the counter, asked the same old dood who processed my application, why couldn't didn't my pass work. He checked the system and told me that my session expired and that I paid for the month of July and not August. And when I told him about him telling me the last time that my application would be dated on the 15th, he said there was no such thing. At that time, I think I was dumb or somethign cos I let it go. I was tired and I thought oh well it's only 20 bucks. So after paying ANOTHER RM 40, he told me that I had to wait a few days before I could use the pass cos they needed to update the system. FINE. Nevermind, I park in uni.

Today when I reached uni, there wasn't any parking in uni premises, I had class at 10 so I asked May to park my car for me. During lecture, she smsed me to tell me that the Elephant Walk was full and that the guard at the Sunway Medical Center wouldn't let her park at their car park. So she had no where to park and in the end parked at the curb of a turning. To cut a very long story short, when I went to my car with the intention of re-parking it somewhere else, May spotted a tow truck from a distance and we ran. In our heels. We ran like our lives depended on it. By the time we reached there, there was already a summon slapped on my windscreen. The few cars in front of me where being towed away. I guess I was lucky in a way. Had I reached any later, my car would be next and my wallet would be lighter by 300 bucks.

I just feel really victimised. First of all, I was told that my season pass would last me till the 15th. I renewed it and couldn't use it immediately. Because of that, we had to find parking else where. The Elephant Walk was supposed to be the alternative when there's no parking in college but it was full. Sunway Medical Center was being an ass and refused to let students park at their premises when they had ample parking space and charge 2 bucks per entry. So what choice do I have? I wasn't even the one who parked the car. It's like they practically forced me to park my car there and get fined. Even the saman dood looked at me with sympathetic eyes when I told him my predicament.

I'm gonna look for my receipt and I'm gonna bombard Sunway about their inefficiency when it comes to processing application. Blardy hell. Gimme back my 20 bucks. It's not so much about the money, it's a matter of principle. After all that happened I just can't let this go. Afterall I have a right. Thank God for business law. If I had nothing better to do, I can even sue them for negligence and have them compensate for my summon. But then again, I do have better things to do, so I'm just gonna make some noise.

Today is one helluva sucky day. Eventhough I went shopping after that and got a Guess top at 70% off. X( Retail theraphy didn't work it's magic this time.

Wargh!

melia signed out with love @ 11:07 PM (2) earthling(s) farted

..What About Amelia?..

Because this blog needs an introduction
Here goes!

I'm 40% mature, 30% child-like
10% fashionista, 8% dork
6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
2% blur, 1% hero x)

I also want to marry John Mayer
And oh, I want a pet unicorn too x)

More self-absorbed information here!!

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