....It's The Lil' Things That Make Life Sweet....

Sunday, October 31, 2004

It's 2.46pm now. I woke up 20 minutes ago with a horrible headache and the Siege of Troy battling on in my stomach. Nobody's at home. Just me. I feel miserable. I feel so alone.

So much for a week of solitude. I don't wanna be alone anymore. I feel like talking to people but there's a problem. I don't know how to talk to anyone anymore. I don't know how to start.

I guess I woke up from the wrong side of bed today. Everything seems sooo wrong. Everything. Seems like nothing is fine. Nothing is right. Nothing is good. My next paper is so near I can practically sniff it. But what have I done for the past week? Nothing. I let stupidity take over again. I let laziness overcome me. Again.

Oh when will I ever learn?

I hope it's not too late.

I need a hug.

And you think life gets better after this....oh well...

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Friday, October 29, 2004

Yesterday I stayed up real late to watch the re-runs of The Simple Life, Young, Posh and Loaded and also For Love or Money 3. Back to back. I finally re-discovered the tv addict in me again! Uh oh..not good. :P

And as a result of this morning's ( I slept at 2.30am) tv rediscovery I woke up at 1.45pm today. Yeah no big deal. I always wake up at noon.

So what did I do today? I wanted to start practicing my Stats. No more last minute studying right? Yeap. I did INTEND to study Chem and practice Stats today but mom's going to Shanghai on Monday and she wants all the chores done before she leaves. So I had to help. So I mopped the floor, clean up my closet - I have no idea I have so many clothes!! Where did they all come from?!?! I seriously need a bigger closet. And I have like a 3 months supply of underwear!!! Who needs so many underwear?! Geez..I gotta stop shopping. - watered the plants, bathed my dog and then washed my car. Tomorrow I'll have to wash my dad's car cause I so stupidly volunteered. I feel like a maid! Ahahahahahah!

Don't know what I'm gonna do when my mom ain't around. That means I gotta take care of the two big guys in the house. I gotta cook, wash their clothes - I don't even have a clue how the washing machine functions -, water the plants, feed the dog, walk the dog, and clean up after the dog after it poops. I'll have to do everything!! I'm gonna be a friggin' maid!!! NoooOoooOoOoOooOoOo!!! I hate household chores! Darn that maid who ran away!!

I'm so proud of me today. I washed my car! And it's squeaky clean now. I even applied rain repellent on my windscreen. Ahahahaha no more fogs for me! I am sooooo proud!

Gee look at the state of my blog now. I'm bloggin' bout normal things now. Simple normal things. I like simple normal things. Yay!

Oh yeah btw Dan Brown's 'The Da Vinci Code' is a brilliant read! Thanks May for borrowing me the book. I finished it in 2 days! It was sooooo addictive I couldn't put the book down!

Yesterday was a fine day. Sometimes a little bit of alone time does wonders. I love my solitude!

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Thursday, October 28, 2004

You know what? I think I'm gonna maintain two blogs. Yeap. It's hard to leave blog-city like that. Not when I just re-did my whole template's colour scheme! I spend hours on that! And the new colour scheme in blog-city reflects me. A more mature me. Hey no snickering! Yeah you! Hush hush!!

Yeap so I'm gonna have two blogs. One in blogspot and one in blog-city. That is till I get sick of maintaining both of them. :D Or maybe I might just change the layout of my blogspot blog. Too darn girl wirly for my liking. So not me!

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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Okay I think it's official! I'm moving to blogspot.com. Why? Because it's prettier and it ain't boring!! What about blog-city? Awww...darn it. I feel so guilty now. Blog-city has been good to me but then blogspot gives me more fun. Look at the layout! I never thought it'd be so easy to do! Me personally am HTML illiterate. Always thought you had to know a thing or two about HTML to actually use blogspot. But I was proven wrong! Ahahahahahaha!! I know everybody's secret! Stupid me!

Anyway I put some of my previous entry from saltedpickles in here to fill up the bare space. I highlighted them in purple. The ones with white fonts or otherwise are all fresh!! Yeaps! Brilliant aren't I?

Anyway if you wanna check out my old blog, it's at http://saltedpickles.blog-city.com/. I even added a link to it. Well gotta ciao now. Spend hours on the computer already! Enjoy!!

To a new funky beginning!!

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New blog? New blog style? Hmm...lotsa peeps say blogspot is cool. So i'mma checking it out...let's see if it's really that cool.

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Sunday, October 24, 2004

That's what you get when you can't say what you wanna say. When he shuts you out and refuses to listen to you. When he thinks he's right all the time and says every single thing that triggers every single irritated nerve you have in your entire system. He pushes all your wrong buttons and forces that devil out in you. You wanna fight back, you wanna scream in his face, you wanna prove that he's wrong, you wanna retort but then you realise that he's got hypertension and you can't go too far. Heck you wouldn't want anything to happen to him now would you? Afterall you still love him so so much. So what do you do? You sit quietly in the car and let him nag at you. Let him raise his voice at you and let him lecture you till every single brain cell is pronounced inactive or dead. Then you get out of the car. You turn on your computer and log on to blog-city and what do you do next? You blog. Like me.

You understand that he loves you and there's no doubt about that but then that's not your concern for the moment. You don't want to understand. You wanna complain. Like me. I wanna complain. Cause he refused to listen to me so I have stored up LOTS of things to say . Everytime he says something, I store another thought because I can't possibly say it out cause he WON'T listen. So now my storage is full and gonna burst anytime soon. Yeap. That's why I'm here. To unload. WHY CAN'T HE LISTEN?!?! Must all parents be like that? Is there like this standard rule book- 'Guide to being An Unreasonable Parent 101'- they all must follow when we're born? If there is I'll be the first one who'd track it and burn it and toss it into the Indian Ocean. Not being racist there. The word Indian just came to mind. Fuhhh....unloading process completed.

Oyeah on a happier note Man Utd just won Arsenal 2-0 finally ending Arsenal's maddening unbeaten run. Pride is restored and I can wear my Man Utd shirt with pride once again! Glory glory Man Utd and kudos to Smith and Rooney for that wonderful 2nd goal. It was the cherry on the cake. Yum! Sweet sweet victory!

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Friday, October 22, 2004

We cannot choose how many
years we live,
But we can choose to put more
Life in those years we have.
*
We cannot control the
features of our face,
but we can control the
kind of expression on it.
*
We cannot control totally
what happens to us,
but we can control how we
respond to these happenings.
*
We cannot control the negative
world around us,
but we can control the inner
world within us.
*
We cannot control the difficult
problems of life,
but we can choose to make
life less difficult
******
Written by someone who knew better...
****************************************************************
Thanks Dan for the poem. Very the inspirational..

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Thanks to the Big Man up there for giving me another chance. Yesh thank you for not punishing me and making today's Math test do-able. I promise never ever to procrastinate and not to be afraid of my weakness! Thank You God! You're definitely The Man! Yeah you're ma Man!!

I'm feeling very grateful today. I never liked Math, actually I hate it. I hate numbers. I hate the sight of swirlly digits. Well unless they appear in great amounts in my bank account. That's a very different story. Eheh. I was never a Math person. I've mentioned it once and I will mention it again. Never a Math person and never will be. Ever since I was a lil kiddo, Math was my poorest subject. I remembered when I was in standard 1, I was placed 4th in class because I got a 98% for Math while I scored a 100% for my other subjects. It was obvious then that Math was NOT my forte. Heck I even had problems writing my 9's and 8's. And because I was no good at it, I fear it. I couldn't grasp it as quick as others and it made me feel dumb. And I don't like feeling dumb. So I avoid doing it, leaving it to the last. When I fear something I always avoid it. That's me and it ain't healthy. But I realised something today. AS is too darn important and not to mention blardy expensive for me to screw up in the name of fear! Yeap so it's practice, practice and more practice from today onwards. The only way to conquer Math is to practice. No easier way. I've done it before for SPM and it's done me good, just that idiotic me always forget or let's just say I choose to forget in the name of laziness. Tsk tsk tsk! Gonna try being less lazy now. It's not gonna do me good in the future. Use that brain Amelia!! God gave you one for a reason you know!! Use it gurl!!

I feel much much more relaxed now that Math is over. One more Stats paper and I'm done for this semester. Well yeah I still got Chem and Bio but those ain't as scary as Math. Ironic huh? And most of my friends think Math is one of the easiest paper. Well I'm not denying it. Yesh it is easy larr...I admit...but me ain't no like Math so the sooner it's over the happier Amelia will be!
Today has been a pretty good day for me. I'm feeling pretty fine at the moment. :) Maybe it's because I've been given a second chance. Thank You Big Guy! You have no idea how grateful I am! Well being God and all I guess you'd probably have a slight idea or two. :)

I love my family. I love my friends. I love my Venus. I love my Kenari. I love college. I love my bed. I love everything that I own. I love my life.

Yesh! I'm in love!! Wheeeeeeeeeee!!!!

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Friday, October 01, 2004

Amelia's very self-absorbed introduction.

Hewo everyone! My name is Amelia Tan. If you paid enough attention, you would know my name way before clicking on that link. If you didn't well shame on you and pay attention next time.

So, a little brief history, because every single person has their own history and I'm not excluded bla bla bla.

The day was 20th March 1986. It was just like any normal day in Klinik Sambhi, a little maternity clinic smacked right in the bustling KL city. It was a beautiful morning. The skys were tinted a very lovely shade of blue with puffy white clouds dotting the vast space. The birds were chirping their sweet song, as if coaxing the flowers to bloom. The clock ticked it's usual rhythm, never missing a beat for it's purpose is to count down time. Every single tick makes the world a second older. Every single tick representing a start or an end.

Tick...tick...tick...the happy clock goes. It's time, it's near. Suddenly a booming loud cry was heard! The world rejoiced! The happy clock felt proud. It marked a beginning. The beginning of a new life.

Okay lah, the bottomline is I was born lah. x)

So alright...to the more important stuff...

I'm 21 and confused. I'm not always confused though. There are times when I'm dead sure. Like the fact that the world is not flat and is infact sphere in shape. Or the time I actually came in first in my kindergarten's bean bag race but was awarded a silver medal instead. Hmph.

My childhood ambition was to become a doctor. I was always fascinated with all things science. I still am. I was once so sure of what I was gonna do. But life is full of tricks and unpredictability so here I am, a struggling future accountant in the making. Sometimes, not everyone can take the road not taken. Sorry Robert Frost to burst your bubble.

I have a tendency to come up with very profound thoughts and everytime I do, I get really emotional. I also have a tendency to come up with very nonsensical thoughts as well and it makes other people emotional. Heh.

I love strawberries. It's a very weird obsession and I'm not quite sure how I got it. But there something about the shape of a strawberry that attracts me. So yeah, that explains the theme of the blog.

I also love happy things like rainbows, crayons, butterflies, colourful birdies, ponies, unicorns and nice friendly mythical creatures.

I'd love to backpack one day. First South East Asia, then Europe and then the rest of the world.

I also want to one day dedicate myself to a non-profit organisation to make the world a better place. No really. I'm serious.

I love to sing but I don't have the range. Maybe in my next life. Oh wait, I don't believe in reincarnations. Too bad.

I can self-induce burp now. I wish I never learnt how.

Owh...I'm feeling a wee bit lazy now. Will update more soon.

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..What About Amelia?..

Because this blog needs an introduction
Here goes!

I'm 40% mature, 30% child-like
10% fashionista, 8% dork
6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
2% blur, 1% hero x)

I also want to marry John Mayer
And oh, I want a pet unicorn too x)

More self-absorbed information here!!

..Mood-o-meter..